i just got these songs after i searched and asked to anyone. and when i listen carefully the lyrics, it's so damn punching me back to a year ago. when we were just stuck in his car. wanted to speak. but no words came. i messed up everything in that time. i aggravated and exacerbated the hard situation among us. i never do what i should have done in that time. and finally there's only regret left with me now. although i'm still trying to really cordially reconcile with the fact.
Parachute - the mess i made
Should've kissed you there
I should've held your face
I should've watched those eyes
Instead of run in place
I should've called you out
I should've said your name
I should've turned around
I should've looked again
But ohh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away
Should've held my ground
I could've been redeemed
For every second chance
That changed its mind on me,
I should've spoken up
I should've proudly claimed
That oh my head's to blame
For all my hearts mistakes
But ohh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away
And it's, you...
And it's, you...
And it's, you...
And it's, you...
And it's falling down
As you walk away...
And it's on me now
As you go...
But ohh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made...
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away
And it's falling down
As you walk away...
And it's on me now
As you go...
Valerius - You say when
I realize
There are things I've never said
Always tried to look away
From the things we never had
I want to speak
But words won't come
Because my voice
Is locked inside a heart-shaped box
I will wait 'till
You say when, I say how to unlock, yeah
You say when, I say how to unlock
A heart-shaped box
Ah, ah
But I know for sure
There's more
Than all that's back from going strong
I want to speak
But words won't come
Because my voice is locked
Inside a heart-shaped box
I will wait 'till
You say when, I say how to unlock, yeah
You say when, I say how to unlock
In another time we live in (I will wait 'till)
Is just another life we live (I will wait 'till)
Baby in another time (I will wait 'till)
But my voice is locked
I will wait 'till
I will wait 'till
I will wait 'till
You say when, I say how to unlock, yeah
You say when, I say how to unlock
To spikes of my
Open up my eyes
And never go back again
To spikes of my
Open up my eyes
i'm counting down the days to face our last day. when our togetherness and future imagination vanished in a tick. wish there's no other pieces of memories left here.
Rabu, 06 Oktober 2010
Minggu, 19 September 2010
take a look with what you've done
recently, i found some people who just claimed censures to condition and structures that restrict them to do something.
but anyway please take a look to yourself.
dont blame the condition, but it initially happened because of yourself since the first beginning.
but anyway please take a look to yourself.
dont blame the condition, but it initially happened because of yourself since the first beginning.
oscar wilde
seperti dua kapan yang berpapasan sewaktu badai,
kita telah bersilang jalan satu sama lain tapi kita tidak membuat sinyal
kita tidak mengucapkan sepatah kata pun
kita tidak punya apapun untuk dikatakan
-oscar wilde-
taken from Marmut Merah Jambu , Raditya Dika.
kita telah bersilang jalan satu sama lain tapi kita tidak membuat sinyal
kita tidak mengucapkan sepatah kata pun
kita tidak punya apapun untuk dikatakan
-oscar wilde-
taken from Marmut Merah Jambu , Raditya Dika.
Jumat, 10 September 2010
random random random
you are so encroaching when u drone bout it. i get dizzy. u r reprehensible for my disease!
where is the elixir sold to cure and obliterate my disease?
because it creates colossal impact to me.
and jeez,the poison is so virulent and lethal.
it's so intransigence to stay here.
hey, poison,i fervently demand, give me a bit concession and wider latitude please!
unless i cant condone you.
or may be i'll succumb and fall deeper?
in the end, i'll show to you that i have preponderant strength to offend you.
where is the elixir sold to cure and obliterate my disease?
because it creates colossal impact to me.
and jeez,the poison is so virulent and lethal.
it's so intransigence to stay here.
hey, poison,i fervently demand, give me a bit concession and wider latitude please!
unless i cant condone you.
or may be i'll succumb and fall deeper?
in the end, i'll show to you that i have preponderant strength to offend you.
Rabu, 08 September 2010
berita duka dari seorang sahabat di hari pertama liburan
innalilahi.
sabbe sankhara annicca.
rest in peace.
ya sesuai dengan judul, tengah malam ini saya memang akan menulis tentang seorang sahabat saya.
sahabat di masa-masa sekolah menengah pertama saya, yang baru saja pergi.
bukan hanya pergi ke lembang, tapi sudah pergi ke dimensi lain.
yang saya tidak *atau belum* tahu dimana itu.
TASIA ROSE SALIM.
hari ini adalah hari pertama saya menjalani liburan saya.
setelah tidur 4 jam, menempuh 2 jam perjalanan untuk hijrah ke kota asal, saya pun makan bakmi, mengisi perut hasil akumulasi kelaperan di hari sebelumnya, dan menutup siang indah saya dengan tidur selama 6 jam.
baiklah saya tahu ini agak *SANGAT* tidak penting menceritakan rutinitas saya hari ini.
tapi di tengah2 keasyikan saya menjalani rutinitas tanpa beban itu,
seorang sahabat saya, elvina, menelpon saya.
saya sempat berpikir, 'weits tumben nih anak tau aja gw lg di jakarta'
lalu saya angkat dengan suara riang gembira, tapi malah saya disambut dengan isak tangisnya.
seingat saya, terakhir kali dia menelpon sambil sesengukan seperti ini, yaitu 3 tahun lalu, ketika dia tahu mantan pacarnya selingkuh.
karena sekarang dia lagi single, otak saya mikir, dia gak mungkin nangisin pacar yang selingkuh lagi kan?
atau mungkin ni telinga salah denger kali ya?
mungkin dia lagi ketawa. *karena sbnrnya suara ketawa sama nangis dia hampir mirip*
tapi ketika vina bilang tasia udah meninggal.
sistem saraf saya menolak semua informasi yang saya terima.
saya masih nanya 'hah? tasia siapa?'
vina: tasia! tasia temen smp kita! tasia rose salim!
otak pun masih setia menolak informasi.
bahkan masih sempat berpikir : hari ini tanggal berapa sih? bukan bulan april tanggal satu kan?
akhirnya realita pun berhasil menarik semua kesadaran saya ke masa sekarang.
masih dalam yakin gak yakin, percaya gak percaya, shock sangat shock,
saya tanya kenapa tasia bisa meninggal.
dan katanya tasia jatoh di kamar mandi.
that's all.
that's it.
otak saya masih coba mencerna lagi.
tapi rasanya susah.
percis kyk di saat bibir lagi sariawan 5 biji, tenggorokan lagi sakit, lidah lagi sakit gara2 kesetrum mic pas siaran, plus sakit gigi gara2 dicabut. yang pasti bakal susah mencerna makanan!
sama kyk susah mencerna alasan kenapa tasia meninggal.
sama kyk lambung kalo sakit maag, yang selalu menolak asupan yang masuk.
sama kyk otak saya yang dipenuhi dengan ego dan aroganis manusia awam, otak saya pun menolak untuk menerima alasan itu.
saya masih gak terima seorang sahabat saya, yang cantik; yang lemot tapi pintar;sudah dipanggil Tuhan.
bahkan keluarga saya, yang kenal dengan dia pun, tidak percaya bahwa tasia udah tidak ada.
mami saya pun masih ingat betul bagaimana dia suka jejingkrakan kalau main ke rumah saya.
dia masih umur 19 tahun. *malah masih 18 tahun, karena ulang tahunnya jatuh pada bulan desember*
kalo yang jatuh di kamar mandi adalah kakek2 umur 78 tahun, saya gak heran.
tapi setau saya, dia juga ga ada penyakit apapun.
lalu kenapa??
saya sedih ketika melihat wall to wall saya di facebook
saya sedih ketika melihat foto2 kami di masa smp dan di pertemuan terakhir kita di bulan februari 2010, ketika reuni
saya sedih ketika mengingat betapa lemotnya dia ketika diajak ngobrol
saya sedih ketika mengingat betapa hectic nya kita menyiapkan UAN bersama, pergi les ke rumah bu yo bareng, mempersiapkan 1st english competition di kala saya jadi ketua dan dia jadi koordinator sie acara, mempersiapkan graduasi dan perpisahan di kala smp, sampai belajar membuat pangsit di rumahnya.
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 latihan basket dan MD bersama
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 saya harus menutup-nutupi ketika dia masih pacaran backstreet
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 saya jadi mak comblang dia dengan teman saya
terlalu banyak yang saya sedihi
terlepas dari semua kesedihan dan pertanyaan bodoh saya itu, saya sadar dengan satu pernyataan yang memang sudah saya sering dengar, bahwa umur tidak ada yang tahu.
we never know what will happen next second. everything changes.
saya tahu kalimatnya. saya hafal. saya khatam malah.
tapi saya masih belum melekat dengan kalimat itu.
tapi tas,kepergian lu mengajarkan gw sesuatu.
ketika karma hidup ini sudah habis, ya habislah.
dia tidak peduli lu lagi di kamar mandi, atau pun sedang di tengah jalan raya, ataupun sdg di lantai 13 atap gedung.
berarti gw harus ngubah hidup gw. gak boleh nunda2 lagi apa yang mau gw kerjain. gw pun harus sebanyak-banyaknya berbuat baik, karena gak akan ada yang tahu kapan gw bakal pergi.
semoga lu tenang ya tas di alam sana. semoga semua kebaikan dan doa2 lu membuat lu dilahirkan di alam yang lebih baik lagi.
selamat jalan, tasia.
sabbe sankhara annicca.
rest in peace.
ya sesuai dengan judul, tengah malam ini saya memang akan menulis tentang seorang sahabat saya.
sahabat di masa-masa sekolah menengah pertama saya, yang baru saja pergi.
bukan hanya pergi ke lembang, tapi sudah pergi ke dimensi lain.
yang saya tidak *atau belum* tahu dimana itu.
TASIA ROSE SALIM.
hari ini adalah hari pertama saya menjalani liburan saya.
setelah tidur 4 jam, menempuh 2 jam perjalanan untuk hijrah ke kota asal, saya pun makan bakmi, mengisi perut hasil akumulasi kelaperan di hari sebelumnya, dan menutup siang indah saya dengan tidur selama 6 jam.
baiklah saya tahu ini agak *SANGAT* tidak penting menceritakan rutinitas saya hari ini.
tapi di tengah2 keasyikan saya menjalani rutinitas tanpa beban itu,
seorang sahabat saya, elvina, menelpon saya.
saya sempat berpikir, 'weits tumben nih anak tau aja gw lg di jakarta'
lalu saya angkat dengan suara riang gembira, tapi malah saya disambut dengan isak tangisnya.
seingat saya, terakhir kali dia menelpon sambil sesengukan seperti ini, yaitu 3 tahun lalu, ketika dia tahu mantan pacarnya selingkuh.
karena sekarang dia lagi single, otak saya mikir, dia gak mungkin nangisin pacar yang selingkuh lagi kan?
atau mungkin ni telinga salah denger kali ya?
mungkin dia lagi ketawa. *karena sbnrnya suara ketawa sama nangis dia hampir mirip*
tapi ketika vina bilang tasia udah meninggal.
sistem saraf saya menolak semua informasi yang saya terima.
saya masih nanya 'hah? tasia siapa?'
vina: tasia! tasia temen smp kita! tasia rose salim!
otak pun masih setia menolak informasi.
bahkan masih sempat berpikir : hari ini tanggal berapa sih? bukan bulan april tanggal satu kan?
akhirnya realita pun berhasil menarik semua kesadaran saya ke masa sekarang.
masih dalam yakin gak yakin, percaya gak percaya, shock sangat shock,
saya tanya kenapa tasia bisa meninggal.
dan katanya tasia jatoh di kamar mandi.
that's all.
that's it.
otak saya masih coba mencerna lagi.
tapi rasanya susah.
percis kyk di saat bibir lagi sariawan 5 biji, tenggorokan lagi sakit, lidah lagi sakit gara2 kesetrum mic pas siaran, plus sakit gigi gara2 dicabut. yang pasti bakal susah mencerna makanan!
sama kyk susah mencerna alasan kenapa tasia meninggal.
sama kyk lambung kalo sakit maag, yang selalu menolak asupan yang masuk.
sama kyk otak saya yang dipenuhi dengan ego dan aroganis manusia awam, otak saya pun menolak untuk menerima alasan itu.
saya masih gak terima seorang sahabat saya, yang cantik; yang lemot tapi pintar;sudah dipanggil Tuhan.
bahkan keluarga saya, yang kenal dengan dia pun, tidak percaya bahwa tasia udah tidak ada.
mami saya pun masih ingat betul bagaimana dia suka jejingkrakan kalau main ke rumah saya.
dia masih umur 19 tahun. *malah masih 18 tahun, karena ulang tahunnya jatuh pada bulan desember*
kalo yang jatuh di kamar mandi adalah kakek2 umur 78 tahun, saya gak heran.
tapi setau saya, dia juga ga ada penyakit apapun.
lalu kenapa??
saya sedih ketika melihat wall to wall saya di facebook
saya sedih ketika melihat foto2 kami di masa smp dan di pertemuan terakhir kita di bulan februari 2010, ketika reuni
saya sedih ketika mengingat betapa lemotnya dia ketika diajak ngobrol
saya sedih ketika mengingat betapa hectic nya kita menyiapkan UAN bersama, pergi les ke rumah bu yo bareng, mempersiapkan 1st english competition di kala saya jadi ketua dan dia jadi koordinator sie acara, mempersiapkan graduasi dan perpisahan di kala smp, sampai belajar membuat pangsit di rumahnya.
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 latihan basket dan MD bersama
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 saya harus menutup-nutupi ketika dia masih pacaran backstreet
saya sedih ketika mengingat masa2 saya jadi mak comblang dia dengan teman saya
terlalu banyak yang saya sedihi
terlepas dari semua kesedihan dan pertanyaan bodoh saya itu, saya sadar dengan satu pernyataan yang memang sudah saya sering dengar, bahwa umur tidak ada yang tahu.
we never know what will happen next second. everything changes.
saya tahu kalimatnya. saya hafal. saya khatam malah.
tapi saya masih belum melekat dengan kalimat itu.
tapi tas,kepergian lu mengajarkan gw sesuatu.
ketika karma hidup ini sudah habis, ya habislah.
dia tidak peduli lu lagi di kamar mandi, atau pun sedang di tengah jalan raya, ataupun sdg di lantai 13 atap gedung.
berarti gw harus ngubah hidup gw. gak boleh nunda2 lagi apa yang mau gw kerjain. gw pun harus sebanyak-banyaknya berbuat baik, karena gak akan ada yang tahu kapan gw bakal pergi.
semoga lu tenang ya tas di alam sana. semoga semua kebaikan dan doa2 lu membuat lu dilahirkan di alam yang lebih baik lagi.
selamat jalan, tasia.
Rabu, 28 Juli 2010
inspired from a woman's chat
i just chatted with one of my friend about love and X n suddenly got this inspiration.
this inspiration was started when i thought how someone can be in so deep recession after they broke up in a serious relationship.
this is note for those ppl who now engulfed by painful scar.*sok putis gagal haha*
i just want to share my thought.
and for you who have had only 1 relationship and got married. so lucky u are. :)it may the result of ur deeds.
but for you who have fallen in love for hundred times and also fell in hundred of failed relationship, dont give up! or even dont commit suicide! haha
just ponder it as ur bad karma. may be in ur previous life, u had hurt them and now it's ur turn to repay it.
or for those of u who dont believe in karma,post this to ur mind:
mungkin jalan kamu untuk nemuin the right person berliku2 berlubang2 berbatu2 berjurang2. tapi tenanggg. sekalinya kamu nemuin pemberhentian yang terakhir, kamu pasti bakal ngerasa bersyukur dan puas banget. kayak org hiking dgn trek yg susah yg da pernah dilaluinya.
remember, everything that is so difficult in our life, actually it teaches us to appreciate what we get. if we always get something easily, we never know how precious the things are. because the value of something is located on how and what we've sacrificed to get that.
just a quick post!
bye.
this inspiration was started when i thought how someone can be in so deep recession after they broke up in a serious relationship.
this is note for those ppl who now engulfed by painful scar.*sok putis gagal haha*
i just want to share my thought.
and for you who have had only 1 relationship and got married. so lucky u are. :)it may the result of ur deeds.
but for you who have fallen in love for hundred times and also fell in hundred of failed relationship, dont give up! or even dont commit suicide! haha
just ponder it as ur bad karma. may be in ur previous life, u had hurt them and now it's ur turn to repay it.
or for those of u who dont believe in karma,post this to ur mind:
mungkin jalan kamu untuk nemuin the right person berliku2 berlubang2 berbatu2 berjurang2. tapi tenanggg. sekalinya kamu nemuin pemberhentian yang terakhir, kamu pasti bakal ngerasa bersyukur dan puas banget. kayak org hiking dgn trek yg susah yg da pernah dilaluinya.
remember, everything that is so difficult in our life, actually it teaches us to appreciate what we get. if we always get something easily, we never know how precious the things are. because the value of something is located on how and what we've sacrificed to get that.
just a quick post!
bye.
Senin, 28 Juni 2010
hiiiiii. i'm in taiwan!
huahahhaa. wan an! good night! selamat malam! wo yong na san ge zi zai wo de jie sou jin tian. haha. xianzai wo yao gao shu wo de jin yen zai taiwan. cielahhh sampah bener ya gw sok2an ngomong bahasa mandarin padahal juga masih kacau babak belur. hahaha.
yaaa intinya gw akan nulis nih blog sebagai laporan gw ke kluarga gw nih dan bbrp temen yang mau baca dan bertanya2 ttg kehidupan gw disini. hehe. dan gw akan nulis ini dgn campuran bahasa (mungkin) biar nyokap bokap jg bisa baca.hehe.
sebelumnya, mari saya perkenalkan dgn aktor dan aktris dalam skenario hidup saya 3 hari ini.
dyah: my indonesia mate who also will have internship here
caesar: my ep buddy here. he's also the vice president of LC in taiwan.he's so nice.
yu-er a yi: this is my host fam. she's also very very kind!
tiffanny: ta shi yu-er a yi de haizi.
lui: the ep from malaysia. he also helps us a lot.
ee joo: she is also ep from malaysia. but unfortunately the ep from malaysia will go back soon because their college's holiday is over.
and other aiesec members.:)
so i'll start with the 1st day i went to taiwan!
jadii dengan segumpal tekad dan nekad *itu beda tipis lho, i just knew that haha*, seuntai harapan gw akan lbh lancar berbahasa mandarin *walaupun sedikit*, dan segenggam kemampuan berbahasa mandarin yang acak adut *msh dicampur dgn bahasa inggris dan bahasa tubuh*, AKHIRNYAAA gw memutuskan untuk ikut magang ke taiwan menjadi asisten guru bahasa inggris disinii. hiyaaaa. thanks to AIESEC who gives my opportunty :)
so back to the date when calender showed : 26th june 2010.
my sacred day for me. it's the first time i go abroad. without family!! ALONE!
and all the silliest thingy start since i and dyah were in jakarta's airport. after checking in to airport, the officer told us to come back at 1 o'clock. after that we went out again, had a lunch with our fam and come back again in 12.50. see! we are such deadliner! haha. not mention about the long queue in immigration part. and the D7 gate is soooo far. we're running with our heavy belonging! haha. then after that i have a good time in flight with the most recently released movies. and also the delicious foods! *thanks to rendra for giving discount for this flight* hehe
5 jam berlalu, akhirnya kami sampailahhh di taoyuan airport dan dijemput oleh caesar dan lui yang sudah menunggu sekian lama krn pesawat kita delayed!duibuqi!
trus kita berempat kyk org linglung bolak balik nunggu taxi di airport tapi ga kunjung datang. si caesar cas-cis-cus ngomong bhasa mandarin telpon si supir taxi. trus pas dateng gw agak kaget krn yg dtg Bukan Taxi Biasa (BTB, saingannya BBB :p haha) itu semacem van khusus bwt di airport krn taxi ga boleh masuk ke airport. laluuu setelah keluar, berganti taxi dan ngiter2 nyari rumah hostfam gw, akhirnya ketemulah dengan director proyek gw, bernama thro di depan jian shan junior high school. trus dia bawa kita ke apartment host fam gw. pertama kalii turunnn udah deg2ann. dan tau2nyaaa. host fam gw baikkk skaliii. haha. sakinngg baiknya kadang itu membawa BENCANA buat gw *tapi kata dian itu karma gw*
bencananya adalah tidak lain tidak bukan tentang: MAKANAN!
gw adalah tipe orang yg sgt pemilih dalam makanan. klo yg kenal sama gw, dia pasti tau banget pertanyaan yang harus dikasih ke gw adalah: LO SUKA MAKAN APA AJA? bukan LO GAK SUKA MAKANANAN APA AJA? hahaha. ya begitulahhh. saking begitu banyaknya makanan yang gw ga suka. tapi disini gw ngerasain makanan2 yang belom pernah gw makan seumur hidup gw. okeee, rephrase it! gak pernah MAU gw coba untuk makan. hahaha.
Seperti daging babi merah, sayur2an yang bahkan gw ga tau apa namanya, dan sushi yang asem2 kayak kesirem acar. zzzz. gw makan itu semua dgn nahan mual dan air mata yang bercucuran. *itu knp si dian blg tu karma bwt gw.katanya tuhan sengaja ngirim gw kesini dgn hostfam yg baik biar gw TERPAKSA makan itu semua krn dian udah gemes ngerayu gw makan sayur. zzzz*
ya selain makanan. gw jg agak punya masalah dgn komunikasi disini. tp sbnrnya gw ga pernah ini anggap masalah besar. krn so far gw blom knp2 gara komunikasi 2 bahasa ga nyambung ini, haha. and hope it wont happen! hehe
disini yang bisa ngomong bahasa inggris sangatlah sedikitttt.termasuk guru2nya. dan kt pun msh dodol bgt ma bahasa mandarin. gw cuma bisa denger tp msh terbata2 jawabnya.>.< jd gw ma dyah sering bgt mengandalkan caesar ma lui utk jd translator kita.
dan mnrt gw ini jd suatu yg agak sedikit bikin self-esteem gw agak sedikit turun ketika td pagi gw ke cultural expo di jianshan xuexiao. lui ngajak gw ngiter tuh sekolah *gilaaa gede bangettt lahhh.da 5 lantai pula.pdhl cuma SMP doank tp gedenya hmpir sama kyk kampus gw.dan tu kebanyakan ruang gurunya!*gw dikenalin ke guru2 dan murid2 disana. mereka ngeliat gw kyk agak anehhh gitu. krn tampang cina tp ga bisa berbahasa cina.haha. tp smuanya berjalan lancar sampe gw ketemu ada 1 murid yang agak hiperaktif,dan aneh. dia tiba2 dtg ke gw. meluk gw *ya cewek sih* dan bikin jokes ttg gw. ya gw tau itu cuma jokes.tp gw cuma bisa ketawa miris ngeliat kelakuan dia *berimajinasi gmn klo gw ketemu dia lg pas ngajar?!* dan abis ituuu gw malah jadi takut ketemu sama dia. *gilaaa kapan lg nih guru takut sama murid.apalagi badan dia lbh gede dr gw. haha*
masalah selanjutnya adalah ttg ukuran badan gw yg mini.hmhh gw ga tau klo anak smp disini berkembang pesat ya. tifaanyy malah terlihat seperti umur duapuluhan.ternyata dia masih 13 tahun dan msh berkelakuan kyk anak kecil. >.< ini smpet jd pertanyaan org2 ketika ketemu gw sama dyah.dia pasti nanya gw umur berapa dan director gw bahkan bilang muka gw kyk anak smp *well gw ga tau ini pujian atau hinaan*dan ini jg sempet ditanyakan pas gw ma dyah lg presentasi expo. ceritanya stlh kami selesai presentasi, kami membuka sesi pertanyaan dan tar mereka bisa dapet souvenir. dan pertanyaan pertama yang mereka tanyakan adalah: how old are you? *dgn pronouncation seperti how are you*
huahhhh. i think it's also one of the matter, because when they consider us as the one who are in the same age with them, they'll no have any respect to us.
yaaaa may be this is some stories from me for these 3days living here. so sorry it's not so details. but overall, i have a great time here with great people here and i think it's enough to overcome all the prob that i had. i wish i can survive here with the naughty students. haha. *now i just feel the pain of teacher when they face the naughty students, but why it's me who get this karma. i am a good student!!! hahaha. keshi meiguanxi aaa.:)
so i'll be back to you soon. to tell further bout taiwan. teng yi xia!
zaijian. :)
wo havent taken a bath yet and now it's 00.18 pm in taiwan. huhu. my bad.
*oh ya i wanna attach some pict actually by my browser doesn't work.so just see the pict in fb*
yaaa intinya gw akan nulis nih blog sebagai laporan gw ke kluarga gw nih dan bbrp temen yang mau baca dan bertanya2 ttg kehidupan gw disini. hehe. dan gw akan nulis ini dgn campuran bahasa (mungkin) biar nyokap bokap jg bisa baca.hehe.
sebelumnya, mari saya perkenalkan dgn aktor dan aktris dalam skenario hidup saya 3 hari ini.
dyah: my indonesia mate who also will have internship here
caesar: my ep buddy here. he's also the vice president of LC in taiwan.he's so nice.
yu-er a yi: this is my host fam. she's also very very kind!
tiffanny: ta shi yu-er a yi de haizi.
lui: the ep from malaysia. he also helps us a lot.
ee joo: she is also ep from malaysia. but unfortunately the ep from malaysia will go back soon because their college's holiday is over.
and other aiesec members.:)
so i'll start with the 1st day i went to taiwan!
jadii dengan segumpal tekad dan nekad *itu beda tipis lho, i just knew that haha*, seuntai harapan gw akan lbh lancar berbahasa mandarin *walaupun sedikit*, dan segenggam kemampuan berbahasa mandarin yang acak adut *msh dicampur dgn bahasa inggris dan bahasa tubuh*, AKHIRNYAAA gw memutuskan untuk ikut magang ke taiwan menjadi asisten guru bahasa inggris disinii. hiyaaaa. thanks to AIESEC who gives my opportunty :)
so back to the date when calender showed : 26th june 2010.
my sacred day for me. it's the first time i go abroad. without family!! ALONE!
and all the silliest thingy start since i and dyah were in jakarta's airport. after checking in to airport, the officer told us to come back at 1 o'clock. after that we went out again, had a lunch with our fam and come back again in 12.50. see! we are such deadliner! haha. not mention about the long queue in immigration part. and the D7 gate is soooo far. we're running with our heavy belonging! haha. then after that i have a good time in flight with the most recently released movies. and also the delicious foods! *thanks to rendra for giving discount for this flight* hehe
5 jam berlalu, akhirnya kami sampailahhh di taoyuan airport dan dijemput oleh caesar dan lui yang sudah menunggu sekian lama krn pesawat kita delayed!duibuqi!
trus kita berempat kyk org linglung bolak balik nunggu taxi di airport tapi ga kunjung datang. si caesar cas-cis-cus ngomong bhasa mandarin telpon si supir taxi. trus pas dateng gw agak kaget krn yg dtg Bukan Taxi Biasa (BTB, saingannya BBB :p haha) itu semacem van khusus bwt di airport krn taxi ga boleh masuk ke airport. laluuu setelah keluar, berganti taxi dan ngiter2 nyari rumah hostfam gw, akhirnya ketemulah dengan director proyek gw, bernama thro di depan jian shan junior high school. trus dia bawa kita ke apartment host fam gw. pertama kalii turunnn udah deg2ann. dan tau2nyaaa. host fam gw baikkk skaliii. haha. sakinngg baiknya kadang itu membawa BENCANA buat gw *tapi kata dian itu karma gw*
bencananya adalah tidak lain tidak bukan tentang: MAKANAN!
gw adalah tipe orang yg sgt pemilih dalam makanan. klo yg kenal sama gw, dia pasti tau banget pertanyaan yang harus dikasih ke gw adalah: LO SUKA MAKAN APA AJA? bukan LO GAK SUKA MAKANANAN APA AJA? hahaha. ya begitulahhh. saking begitu banyaknya makanan yang gw ga suka. tapi disini gw ngerasain makanan2 yang belom pernah gw makan seumur hidup gw. okeee, rephrase it! gak pernah MAU gw coba untuk makan. hahaha.
Seperti daging babi merah, sayur2an yang bahkan gw ga tau apa namanya, dan sushi yang asem2 kayak kesirem acar. zzzz. gw makan itu semua dgn nahan mual dan air mata yang bercucuran. *itu knp si dian blg tu karma bwt gw.katanya tuhan sengaja ngirim gw kesini dgn hostfam yg baik biar gw TERPAKSA makan itu semua krn dian udah gemes ngerayu gw makan sayur. zzzz*
ya selain makanan. gw jg agak punya masalah dgn komunikasi disini. tp sbnrnya gw ga pernah ini anggap masalah besar. krn so far gw blom knp2 gara komunikasi 2 bahasa ga nyambung ini, haha. and hope it wont happen! hehe
disini yang bisa ngomong bahasa inggris sangatlah sedikitttt.termasuk guru2nya. dan kt pun msh dodol bgt ma bahasa mandarin. gw cuma bisa denger tp msh terbata2 jawabnya.>.< jd gw ma dyah sering bgt mengandalkan caesar ma lui utk jd translator kita.
dan mnrt gw ini jd suatu yg agak sedikit bikin self-esteem gw agak sedikit turun ketika td pagi gw ke cultural expo di jianshan xuexiao. lui ngajak gw ngiter tuh sekolah *gilaaa gede bangettt lahhh.da 5 lantai pula.pdhl cuma SMP doank tp gedenya hmpir sama kyk kampus gw.dan tu kebanyakan ruang gurunya!*gw dikenalin ke guru2 dan murid2 disana. mereka ngeliat gw kyk agak anehhh gitu. krn tampang cina tp ga bisa berbahasa cina.haha. tp smuanya berjalan lancar sampe gw ketemu ada 1 murid yang agak hiperaktif,dan aneh. dia tiba2 dtg ke gw. meluk gw *ya cewek sih* dan bikin jokes ttg gw. ya gw tau itu cuma jokes.tp gw cuma bisa ketawa miris ngeliat kelakuan dia *berimajinasi gmn klo gw ketemu dia lg pas ngajar?!* dan abis ituuu gw malah jadi takut ketemu sama dia. *gilaaa kapan lg nih guru takut sama murid.apalagi badan dia lbh gede dr gw. haha*
masalah selanjutnya adalah ttg ukuran badan gw yg mini.hmhh gw ga tau klo anak smp disini berkembang pesat ya. tifaanyy malah terlihat seperti umur duapuluhan.ternyata dia masih 13 tahun dan msh berkelakuan kyk anak kecil. >.< ini smpet jd pertanyaan org2 ketika ketemu gw sama dyah.dia pasti nanya gw umur berapa dan director gw bahkan bilang muka gw kyk anak smp *well gw ga tau ini pujian atau hinaan*dan ini jg sempet ditanyakan pas gw ma dyah lg presentasi expo. ceritanya stlh kami selesai presentasi, kami membuka sesi pertanyaan dan tar mereka bisa dapet souvenir. dan pertanyaan pertama yang mereka tanyakan adalah: how old are you? *dgn pronouncation seperti how are you*
huahhhh. i think it's also one of the matter, because when they consider us as the one who are in the same age with them, they'll no have any respect to us.
yaaaa may be this is some stories from me for these 3days living here. so sorry it's not so details. but overall, i have a great time here with great people here and i think it's enough to overcome all the prob that i had. i wish i can survive here with the naughty students. haha. *now i just feel the pain of teacher when they face the naughty students, but why it's me who get this karma. i am a good student!!! hahaha. keshi meiguanxi aaa.:)
so i'll be back to you soon. to tell further bout taiwan. teng yi xia!
zaijian. :)
wo havent taken a bath yet and now it's 00.18 pm in taiwan. huhu. my bad.
*oh ya i wanna attach some pict actually by my browser doesn't work.so just see the pict in fb*
Rabu, 16 Juni 2010
random
have you ever felt that you HAVE TO be success because you are the sole fulcrum?
have you ever felt that you HAVE TO please everyone because you owe toward them?
have you ever felt that you can not resist all the burdens anymore?
have you ever felt so afraid that you can't embody all your beloved people's dream and hope on you?
have you ever felt that you're not as strong as you think?
have you ever felt that the way you choose right now is NOT your right way to be undergone?
have you ever felt that you HAVE TO please everyone because you owe toward them?
have you ever felt that you can not resist all the burdens anymore?
have you ever felt so afraid that you can't embody all your beloved people's dream and hope on you?
have you ever felt that you're not as strong as you think?
have you ever felt that the way you choose right now is NOT your right way to be undergone?
Jumat, 28 Mei 2010
silly conversation between mom and her daughter via sms *bandung-jakarta*
background singkat
nyokap minta dicariin tiket murah air asia untuk ke bali. tapi stlh gw cari-cari tiket murah nya ga da dan gw pun bilang ke nyokap klo tiketnya udah gag da. lalu gw gantian nyari tiket pesawat untuk ke taiwan. akhirnya gw nemuin tiket yang murah dan gw langsung sms nyokap karena gw butuh credit card nya *dasar anak oportunis haha*
me: mi aku dpt tiket pesawat murah di airasia. aku da itung semuanya PP 3.845.800 dgn estimasi 1dollar = 10 ribu. smoga dollar turun lagi.hehe. ni promo nya sampe tgl 31 mei ini mi. skrg tgl bayarnya doank mi. tp aku ga ngerti bayarnya. ni bisa pake credit card atau debit.
mom: hah? mahal banget ikut tour di tempat ii saja murah PP cuma 1,7 juta. sdhlah cink kalo mahal sayang duitnya, mami ga berani kalo mahal segitu.
*gw pun shock! mikir. mank ada ke taiwan PP 1,7 jt? murahh benerr. mauu donkk! tapi masa nyokap gw ga mau bayarin pesawat? trus da sign kontrak gitu dsn, mau anaknya dituntut kali ya? trus stlh gw berpikir2 lagi, ternyata gw baru sadar nyokap gw itu salah interpretasi ttg sms nya. dia masih kebayang2 ma tiket pesawat bali. hahahaha. gw langsung ketawa. ya ga mungkin aja gitu gw dgn tanpa rasa bersalahnya ngajuin harga tiket ke bali sampe 3 jutaan dan lbh ga mungkin lg bagi gw *yang notabene agak pelit* nganggep harga segitu murah. hahaha
that's all. just want to share my silly conversation with my mom.
anw this is the 1st time i write blog in non-substantial topic. hehe.
wish me luck with all preparation to taiwan. wish me luck there.
and
happy vesakh day ! *this is my 1st time I celebrate vesakh day alone, without my fam. even i cried in the morning when made a call to my fam. oh how gushy i am! haha.*
nyokap minta dicariin tiket murah air asia untuk ke bali. tapi stlh gw cari-cari tiket murah nya ga da dan gw pun bilang ke nyokap klo tiketnya udah gag da. lalu gw gantian nyari tiket pesawat untuk ke taiwan. akhirnya gw nemuin tiket yang murah dan gw langsung sms nyokap karena gw butuh credit card nya *dasar anak oportunis haha*
me: mi aku dpt tiket pesawat murah di airasia. aku da itung semuanya PP 3.845.800 dgn estimasi 1dollar = 10 ribu. smoga dollar turun lagi.hehe. ni promo nya sampe tgl 31 mei ini mi. skrg tgl bayarnya doank mi. tp aku ga ngerti bayarnya. ni bisa pake credit card atau debit.
mom: hah? mahal banget ikut tour di tempat ii saja murah PP cuma 1,7 juta. sdhlah cink kalo mahal sayang duitnya, mami ga berani kalo mahal segitu.
*gw pun shock! mikir. mank ada ke taiwan PP 1,7 jt? murahh benerr. mauu donkk! tapi masa nyokap gw ga mau bayarin pesawat? trus da sign kontrak gitu dsn, mau anaknya dituntut kali ya? trus stlh gw berpikir2 lagi, ternyata gw baru sadar nyokap gw itu salah interpretasi ttg sms nya. dia masih kebayang2 ma tiket pesawat bali. hahahaha. gw langsung ketawa. ya ga mungkin aja gitu gw dgn tanpa rasa bersalahnya ngajuin harga tiket ke bali sampe 3 jutaan dan lbh ga mungkin lg bagi gw *yang notabene agak pelit* nganggep harga segitu murah. hahaha
that's all. just want to share my silly conversation with my mom.
anw this is the 1st time i write blog in non-substantial topic. hehe.
wish me luck with all preparation to taiwan. wish me luck there.
and
happy vesakh day ! *this is my 1st time I celebrate vesakh day alone, without my fam. even i cried in the morning when made a call to my fam. oh how gushy i am! haha.*
Rabu, 26 Mei 2010
reorganize. restructure. restrengthen
recently I feel my life is going to a mess *again*
my strong-will has been weaken.
my old bad habit is relapsing again
which is being ababil girl again. *big zzzz for myself*
i guess you've known what and who successfully tatter my life.
yes, he is.
hmh a bit hard and embarrassed to confess this.
but yes, til now i still can't escape from his shadow. *my melancholy side mode:on*
although i know it hurts me most but i still have a big damn shit unimportant curiousity *aka kepo* to know more bout it.
til right now, i'll vow to you that i have to strong conviction
that i'll
reorganize and restructure my mind
then
restrengthen my will
to get my normal life back.
i just found new quote, made by own self.
wishing it also could be prevail towards myself:
knowing and realizing are not enough to stop you clinging on what hurts you most. you need a strong-willed to get over about it. and ban your unimportant curiosity to that. at least by staying away from it, you have started to love yourself first!
i do want to love myself!
so i'll start it.
i'll strive to press my unimportant curiosity.
wish me luck.
pray for me.
sorry to be so melancholy right now.
adios!
my strong-will has been weaken.
my old bad habit is relapsing again
which is being ababil girl again. *big zzzz for myself*
i guess you've known what and who successfully tatter my life.
yes, he is.
hmh a bit hard and embarrassed to confess this.
but yes, til now i still can't escape from his shadow. *my melancholy side mode:on*
although i know it hurts me most but i still have a big damn shit unimportant curiousity *aka kepo* to know more bout it.
til right now, i'll vow to you that i have to strong conviction
that i'll
reorganize and restructure my mind
then
restrengthen my will
to get my normal life back.
i just found new quote, made by own self.
wishing it also could be prevail towards myself:
knowing and realizing are not enough to stop you clinging on what hurts you most. you need a strong-willed to get over about it. and ban your unimportant curiosity to that. at least by staying away from it, you have started to love yourself first!
i do want to love myself!
so i'll start it.
i'll strive to press my unimportant curiosity.
wish me luck.
pray for me.
sorry to be so melancholy right now.
adios!
Sabtu, 17 April 2010
enjoying life
hii blogie :)
so sorry again*seems like my every latest post always contain sorry in the beginning* that now I just visit youu. i have lot things to be worked out. *as usual*
since i'm so busy with ASSignments, sometimes i think that 'busy' has been my middle name. haha *naonn siaa*
since i'm so busy. just like wake up in the morning, take a bath, going to campus, having lectures, announcing, debating, committees' stuffs. no one that can make my self-convenience.
until today. this evening. after LDK at URS. when i went home by walking *as usual things like i do everyday* i feel something different.
if i usually never enjoy the process of walking, today i enjoy every step that i take.
i try to feel secure.
enjoying my solitude
smelling the bandung's atmosphere in afternoon
listening to the cozy music at handphone
looking up for the sky
seeing the moon that just want to occur soon
ahhh. all of these make me smile.
make me grateful for my life.
and still alive 'til this second i write this to you, bloggie :)
i just realized how actually i used to enjoy JJS *Jalan jalan Sore* in my resident.
then now because all the bustle, it makes me forget about the bliss by JJS.
then when i arrived in front of my dorm. i feel so hesitate to come in. recently i feel like being in a jail. i'm trapped by all these assignments.
however the condition right now.
i realized a crucial point today.
no matter how busy i am.
no matter how stress i am.
i HAVE TO enjoy my life.
enjoy my surrounding environment.
and make my own self-convenience. :D
happyyy saturday's midnight!
so sorry again*seems like my every latest post always contain sorry in the beginning* that now I just visit youu. i have lot things to be worked out. *as usual*
since i'm so busy with ASSignments, sometimes i think that 'busy' has been my middle name. haha *naonn siaa*
since i'm so busy. just like wake up in the morning, take a bath, going to campus, having lectures, announcing, debating, committees' stuffs. no one that can make my self-convenience.
until today. this evening. after LDK at URS. when i went home by walking *as usual things like i do everyday* i feel something different.
if i usually never enjoy the process of walking, today i enjoy every step that i take.
i try to feel secure.
enjoying my solitude
smelling the bandung's atmosphere in afternoon
listening to the cozy music at handphone
looking up for the sky
seeing the moon that just want to occur soon
ahhh. all of these make me smile.
make me grateful for my life.
and still alive 'til this second i write this to you, bloggie :)
i just realized how actually i used to enjoy JJS *Jalan jalan Sore* in my resident.
then now because all the bustle, it makes me forget about the bliss by JJS.
then when i arrived in front of my dorm. i feel so hesitate to come in. recently i feel like being in a jail. i'm trapped by all these assignments.
however the condition right now.
i realized a crucial point today.
no matter how busy i am.
no matter how stress i am.
i HAVE TO enjoy my life.
enjoy my surrounding environment.
and make my own self-convenience. :D
happyyy saturday's midnight!
Sabtu, 27 Maret 2010
here are some nice-tactful-motivated quotes from Ajahn Brahm in his talkshow 'Love You' in Bandung (26/3/10)
Good,Bad, who knows?
so when your girlfriend dumbed you, good, bad, who knows? in fact, if my girlfriend never dumbed me, I won't be a monk.
Don't love someone because someone is perfect.
it just make you fatigue to find the perfect person. no one is perfect right doesn't always mean perfect.
Being angry = being temporary insane
No matter what you do, i still love you.
this is what so called as a universal love.for all human being.
you can't understand the meaning of something when that thing is still with you.
when you do meditation and reach Jhana, you will know the meaning of your body and mind because you are no longer with both of them.
whenever you are tired to hold this glass, just put it down.
so does your activities. everytime you feel so weary with your hectic activities, just leave it a while and when you go back to your activities you will feel better.
Gay and Lesbian are welcomed in Buddhist.
in Karaniya Metta Sutta, Buddha never made exception toward Gay and Lesbian.It's said that 'May all beings be happy', it also prevails for Gay and Lesbian. I have lot of gay and lesbian flocks but all of them are nice in worship.
*all the explanation above has been reworded,each words are not exactly same, but the essence is same.
so when your girlfriend dumbed you, good, bad, who knows? in fact, if my girlfriend never dumbed me, I won't be a monk.
Don't love someone because someone is perfect.
it just make you fatigue to find the perfect person. no one is perfect right doesn't always mean perfect.
Being angry = being temporary insane
No matter what you do, i still love you.
this is what so called as a universal love.for all human being.
you can't understand the meaning of something when that thing is still with you.
when you do meditation and reach Jhana, you will know the meaning of your body and mind because you are no longer with both of them.
whenever you are tired to hold this glass, just put it down.
so does your activities. everytime you feel so weary with your hectic activities, just leave it a while and when you go back to your activities you will feel better.
Gay and Lesbian are welcomed in Buddhist.
in Karaniya Metta Sutta, Buddha never made exception toward Gay and Lesbian.It's said that 'May all beings be happy', it also prevails for Gay and Lesbian. I have lot of gay and lesbian flocks but all of them are nice in worship.
*all the explanation above has been reworded,each words are not exactly same, but the essence is same.
Kamis, 25 Maret 2010
do revolution: challenge myself to create my own happiness!
oh yeah, before i go to sleep, i forgot to tell you about one big event of my life. hmh kinda historic event? that prevert my next life.
you know the prob that make me labile-girl recently. i dont want to explain it anymore.the point is i've tried my best to get my second change. but everything is not simple as that. the decision is no. and now the time when i have to fulfill my vow. to stay away from a thing that doesnt belong to me anymore.
moreover,i realized that recently i just lived in a gloom, thinking bout a thing that i know it will hurt me best. now the time to change. time to pursue and create my own happiness. because happiness is state of mind and i'm too fatigue to pursue other's happiness since my happiness also must be considered!
i have kept that pandora box to one of my best friend. i'll take it again after i can laugh my past memories. after i can be sincere fully to accept the fact. unless that box will just hurt me more.
hope i'll be success in this revolution!
someday i'll be free from the colonization.
hmhh, but is it just free from colonization or just waiting for the new colonization?
hmh let's see soon!
now go to the lalala dreamland. haha *my new dreamland= ONLY me,my fam, my folks eat baskin robin. hahahaha*
you know the prob that make me labile-girl recently. i dont want to explain it anymore.the point is i've tried my best to get my second change. but everything is not simple as that. the decision is no. and now the time when i have to fulfill my vow. to stay away from a thing that doesnt belong to me anymore.
moreover,i realized that recently i just lived in a gloom, thinking bout a thing that i know it will hurt me best. now the time to change. time to pursue and create my own happiness. because happiness is state of mind and i'm too fatigue to pursue other's happiness since my happiness also must be considered!
i have kept that pandora box to one of my best friend. i'll take it again after i can laugh my past memories. after i can be sincere fully to accept the fact. unless that box will just hurt me more.
hope i'll be success in this revolution!
someday i'll be free from the colonization.
hmhh, but is it just free from colonization or just waiting for the new colonization?
hmh let's see soon!
now go to the lalala dreamland. haha *my new dreamland= ONLY me,my fam, my folks eat baskin robin. hahahaha*
bandung-jemberrrrr-bandung :)
heyhh bloggie. so sorry that now i just can visit you. frankly, i had gone home last saturday but somehow i was infected by laziness virus. haha. my bad :(
actually when i was on the train i was really in the mood to write but since i'm so lazy to take my laptop and not so sure i could get the signal on the train. moreover, my mobile phone couldn't help me at all to visit you :(
i had 17 hours voyage to jember. ahhh. it was so fatigue yet it was so fun. because i was with folks.and it was the time for us to know each other.even though it was so fun, i couldn't take proper slumber! all poses had been tried by me. no one was suitable for me. and the result i got damn shit ache on my neck. huhu.
after 12 hours on the train, finally we *red.Unpar's delegations* arrived at surabaya. yeiyhhh!! but suddenly my maag was relapsing. that disease forced me to eat bread whereas i hadn't brushed my teeth. ahh. it was so vexing! haha.
after that, we went to bus terminal. there we had breakfast and finally i brushed my teeth! haha.
next, we went to jember with bus and had 5 hours there. that was my first time using inter-cities bus. and i just knew the condition there. even though we used executive bus, but still everytime the bus halted, the seller overcrowded the buses.sometimes they were so vexing with their selling style. they just put or even throw their merchants to us, no matter we were sleeping or awake!and i got hot banana when i was sleeping. i wanted to be angry, but when i realized that it was their style to earn money. and i should respect them because somehow they're the optimist ppl that never wanna give up by doing crime. it's better to be seller than being a crime. haha.
next after we arrived in jember, one sentence that expelled by me was: THIS CITY IS SO DAMN HOT!! I WANT BANDUNGG!!!!
even though the weather in jember was not as friendly as the committee,but overall i had a good time there. i met with many new friends from whole regions of indonesia. i also captured new traits of ppl there. and portrayed it to my mind. i got a lot of knowledges about ASEAN and experiences there. the goods above simply replaced my suck activities when i had to join plenary which robbed my energy. haha
in a nutshell,PNMHII was a really great experience for me. moreover, when UNPAR's delegation *some of my friends* were success to take 'Best Delegates' and 'Best Paper' awards. now i'm craving for other new life experiences! since now i've made a vow that i want to do revolution towards my self. and i want to challenge my self to create my own happiness.
and now i just got a chance to have internship in china. huahh. i was so excited. please pray for me, wish there will be no obstacles that hinder me to go there :)
see ya in the next blog!! :)
actually when i was on the train i was really in the mood to write but since i'm so lazy to take my laptop and not so sure i could get the signal on the train. moreover, my mobile phone couldn't help me at all to visit you :(
i had 17 hours voyage to jember. ahhh. it was so fatigue yet it was so fun. because i was with folks.and it was the time for us to know each other.even though it was so fun, i couldn't take proper slumber! all poses had been tried by me. no one was suitable for me. and the result i got damn shit ache on my neck. huhu.
after 12 hours on the train, finally we *red.Unpar's delegations* arrived at surabaya. yeiyhhh!! but suddenly my maag was relapsing. that disease forced me to eat bread whereas i hadn't brushed my teeth. ahh. it was so vexing! haha.
after that, we went to bus terminal. there we had breakfast and finally i brushed my teeth! haha.
next, we went to jember with bus and had 5 hours there. that was my first time using inter-cities bus. and i just knew the condition there. even though we used executive bus, but still everytime the bus halted, the seller overcrowded the buses.sometimes they were so vexing with their selling style. they just put or even throw their merchants to us, no matter we were sleeping or awake!and i got hot banana when i was sleeping. i wanted to be angry, but when i realized that it was their style to earn money. and i should respect them because somehow they're the optimist ppl that never wanna give up by doing crime. it's better to be seller than being a crime. haha.
next after we arrived in jember, one sentence that expelled by me was: THIS CITY IS SO DAMN HOT!! I WANT BANDUNGG!!!!
even though the weather in jember was not as friendly as the committee,but overall i had a good time there. i met with many new friends from whole regions of indonesia. i also captured new traits of ppl there. and portrayed it to my mind. i got a lot of knowledges about ASEAN and experiences there. the goods above simply replaced my suck activities when i had to join plenary which robbed my energy. haha
in a nutshell,PNMHII was a really great experience for me. moreover, when UNPAR's delegation *some of my friends* were success to take 'Best Delegates' and 'Best Paper' awards. now i'm craving for other new life experiences! since now i've made a vow that i want to do revolution towards my self. and i want to challenge my self to create my own happiness.
and now i just got a chance to have internship in china. huahh. i was so excited. please pray for me, wish there will be no obstacles that hinder me to go there :)
see ya in the next blog!! :)
Sabtu, 13 Maret 2010
war = common?
haii bloggy, in this a spare and rush time *because in a few min i have to have lunch+dinner and off to jember* i'm kind to drop by you. to write my scattered notion. haha.
now i'll share about the phenomenon that happen recent years, called : WAR
in the past may be, people will be so afraid by those 3 characters but devastating impact. people see war as an anomaly event.
but what i see now that war is soo abundant, israel-palestine, pakistan-india, south korea-north korea, china-taiwan, and not mention about the domestic war, like in sudan, nigeria, congo, afganistan, ahhh if you read newspaper you see abundant victims because of those damn-suck wars.
however, in this moment, i'll see one phenomenon that happen to US, as a reader.
this thing happens to me.
i dont know why may be because newspaper report alot of war, and almost everyday, i tend to be nauseous and getting bored with that endless war.
by time goes, i'm starting to think that war is a common things.
until i realize that somehow the abundant news has plugged my consent up.
by considering war is just a common thing, it will lessen my concern to think about the victims and other devastating impact. meanwhile the people there are really gloomy bout their condition and never deeming this war as a COMMON event. uhh i feel so sucks with myself on how i deem that as a common things
may be it doesnt happen only to me, but may be also prevail to some other people outside.
what i want to state here that, heyy please awake your consent and concern to see their misery. because by starting that, may be we can make a change someday. even though abit!
okehh. it's enough for today. now i'll go to jember. pray for me and my folks to bring good image of unpar. *ahhha i've trained myself to smile sincerely and strive to change my face pattern so i won't be said as a vicious woman*
may be if i have a time, i'll continue writing my other thought in train!
wish us safe until destination and til be back here!
see yaa blogiee! :)
now i'll share about the phenomenon that happen recent years, called : WAR
in the past may be, people will be so afraid by those 3 characters but devastating impact. people see war as an anomaly event.
but what i see now that war is soo abundant, israel-palestine, pakistan-india, south korea-north korea, china-taiwan, and not mention about the domestic war, like in sudan, nigeria, congo, afganistan, ahhh if you read newspaper you see abundant victims because of those damn-suck wars.
however, in this moment, i'll see one phenomenon that happen to US, as a reader.
this thing happens to me.
i dont know why may be because newspaper report alot of war, and almost everyday, i tend to be nauseous and getting bored with that endless war.
by time goes, i'm starting to think that war is a common things.
until i realize that somehow the abundant news has plugged my consent up.
by considering war is just a common thing, it will lessen my concern to think about the victims and other devastating impact. meanwhile the people there are really gloomy bout their condition and never deeming this war as a COMMON event. uhh i feel so sucks with myself on how i deem that as a common things
may be it doesnt happen only to me, but may be also prevail to some other people outside.
what i want to state here that, heyy please awake your consent and concern to see their misery. because by starting that, may be we can make a change someday. even though abit!
okehh. it's enough for today. now i'll go to jember. pray for me and my folks to bring good image of unpar. *ahhha i've trained myself to smile sincerely and strive to change my face pattern so i won't be said as a vicious woman*
may be if i have a time, i'll continue writing my other thought in train!
wish us safe until destination and til be back here!
see yaa blogiee! :)
Jumat, 12 Maret 2010
time is miracle
only three things in this world that never can be controlled my human:
emotion. change. time
What does miracle means in your life?
a magic-spell-word that can change your life in a sec?
God's aid to change your hard-life? *hmhh no no no! a wise man told in one of his quote that we don't ask to God to make your life easier but ask him to make you stronger*
that's true! during our life, we often just complaint to God/ destiny*for those who are atheis*, just ask God to make a miracle to our life everytime we are faced by prob.
but one thing that hard to be realized that actually God/ destiny has given his most blatant and potent miracle, which is so called as TIME.
time is so lingering our life. time and we can't be separated. we live in a certain time. and time will be meaningless if human don't live.
why I say time is a miracle?
simply because only time can cure pain and your misery. only time can make a change!
God/ destiny created a continuous-dynamic-TIME because he want TIME to fix our pain even it takes long time.
Ajahn Brahmn, one of famous monk from Australia and now live in Thailand, tells us that everything will be definitely gone. nothing will last forever. no matter it's happiness or pain. that's why he suggests us no to be too happy / excited/ gloomy in facing our days. because everything will be gone.
so remember, beware with time because time always can make a change! time is the real miracle!
emotion. change. time
What does miracle means in your life?
a magic-spell-word that can change your life in a sec?
God's aid to change your hard-life? *hmhh no no no! a wise man told in one of his quote that we don't ask to God to make your life easier but ask him to make you stronger*
that's true! during our life, we often just complaint to God/ destiny*for those who are atheis*, just ask God to make a miracle to our life everytime we are faced by prob.
but one thing that hard to be realized that actually God/ destiny has given his most blatant and potent miracle, which is so called as TIME.
time is so lingering our life. time and we can't be separated. we live in a certain time. and time will be meaningless if human don't live.
why I say time is a miracle?
simply because only time can cure pain and your misery. only time can make a change!
God/ destiny created a continuous-dynamic-TIME because he want TIME to fix our pain even it takes long time.
Ajahn Brahmn, one of famous monk from Australia and now live in Thailand, tells us that everything will be definitely gone. nothing will last forever. no matter it's happiness or pain. that's why he suggests us no to be too happy / excited/ gloomy in facing our days. because everything will be gone.
so remember, beware with time because time always can make a change! time is the real miracle!
my fenom assignments: review of OSAMA movie
last week, i watched 'osama' in my fenomenologi class. in this class, the students will learn what are the effects of religion's diversity and how to solve it.
OSAMA tells us bout a story of a girl who disguise as a boy for the sake of her family's sustainability. you will see how cruel the taliban treats people in afganistan, especially for women. the right of women here really never acknowledge by them. taliban uses religion to mask their cruel action! briefly,this movie really capture what happen in afganistan and again, make you thank that destiny put your birth in this country, at least not like in afganistan when everything seems like a havoc and miserable.
this is my brief assignments:
1.Apa komentar spontan Anda ketika menonton film ini?
Komentar spontan saya ketika menonton film ini adalah Taliban memang sangat kejam. Saya tidak habis pikir untuk apa Taliban melakukan hal-hal seperti itu, apakah untuk menegakkan ajaran agama atau sekedar untuk kepentingan pribadinya. Saya sangat prihatin akan nasib masyarakat disana yang diperbudak dengan Taliban, terutama kaum wanita dan anak-anak. Setelah menonton film ini, saya menjadi merasa bersyuku bahwa saya tinggal di Indonesia yang walaupun banyak orang yang berfanatisme tinggi dengan agamanya, tetapi setidaknya saya tidak harus diperbudak dengan satu agama.
2.Apa peran agama dalam kemerdekaan umat manusia, terutama untuk wanita?
Peran agama secara general sebenarnya adalah untuk menjadi sarana manusia kepada Tuhan dengan ajarannya yang mengharuskan manusia berbuat baik. Entah itu berbuat baik dengan hewan, lingkungan, atau sesama manusianya. Pada dasarnya manusia mempunyai hak asasi, hak yang sudah melekat pada diri manusia masing-masing ketika pertama kali seseorang muncul di bumi sebagai manusia. Hak asasi ini disebut juga hak hidup karena memang hak ini adalah yang melindungi manusia dalam menjalani aktivitas nya sehari-sehari dalam kehidupannya. Selama ia tidak melanggar hak asasi orang lain, hak ia pun akan tetap dijunjung. Berarti seharusnya, setiap orang mempunyai kemerdekaannya sendiri-sendiri, merdeka dari kehendak orang lain. Entah itu pria atau wanita, menurut ajaran agama, di hadapan Tuhan, mereka adalah sederajat, tidak ada yg lebih special dan sudah seharusnya juga pria dan wanita diperlakukan sama di dalam kehidupan nyata. Jangan menjadikan gender sebagai justifikasi untuk menganggap remeh seseorang. Jadi, seharusnya peran agama terhadap semua manusia –entah itu pria atau wanita- adalah menyediakan dasar ajaran agamanya dengan benar agar setiap orang mau untuk berbuat baik terhadap sesama. Saya adalah orang yang percaya bahwa semua agama pada dasarnya adalah baik, tetapi semua itu kembali lagi kepada orang-orang yang mengintepretasikannya.
3.Apa kaitan agama dan kemanusiaan dari adegan film ini?
Kaitan agama dan kemanusiaan dalam film ini adalah bagaimana sebuah ajaran agama disalahgunakan atau digunakan sebagai topeng untuk menutupi sebuah kejahatan masal. Ajaran agama disini digunakan untuk merenggut kemerdekaan orang. Misalnya kemerdekaan wanita untuk berjalan sendiri, untuk tidak memakai burka, untuk bekerja dan mendapatkan gaji yang sesuai dengan pekerjaannya, untuk menghukum seseorang karena kesalahan yang sebenarnya bukan kesalahan, seperti wartawan yang mengambil gambar keadaan di Afganistan. Dalam film ini, seolah-olah perempuan dianggap lebih rendah, perempuan dianggap hanya sebagai alat untuk memuaskan nafsu lelaki, mengurus anak, mengurus suami. Perempuan tidak pernah dianggap lebih dari itu. Agama dijadikan tameng bahwa perempuan seharusnya menutup auratnya, tapi apakah semua bagian tubuh dari seorang wanita dikatakan aurat? Apabila kita menganalisa lebih dalam lagi yang dikatakan aurat adalah bagian tubuh yang dapat membuat terangsang. Jika begitu, kenapa pria juga tidak menggunakan burka? Toh wanita juga bisa saja terangsang dengan pria. Lagipula nterangsang itu tidak muncul dari aurat tubuh,tapi pikiran manusianya sendiri. Sebenarnya burka dulu dipakai karena pertama kali Islam muncul di daerah Arab yang notabene banyak gurun pasir, jadi agar tidak terkena debunya, mereka menggunakan burka. Hal itu bukan berarti seorang perempuan harus terus menggunakan burka dan agama Islam pun hanya menganjurkan perempuan untuk menutupi aurat tubuhnya, bukan berarti satu badan harus ditutupi. Selain itu, Taliban seolah-olah menggunakan dasar bahwa mereka itu suci jadi tidak boleh ada orang asing, seperti wartawan yang meliput aktivitas mereka. Padahal di agama Islam tidak pernah menyatakan bahwa orang yang merenggut kemerdekaan orang lain dikatakan sebagai yang suci. Taliban hanya menggunakan ‘kesucian’ mereka sebagai dasar untuk menghukum mati seorang wartawan asing. Jadi, agama dalam film ini benar-benar dijadikan sebagai topeng untuk menutupi kejahatan Taliban dalam merenggut kemerdekaannya.
4.Menurut Anda, apa yang sebaiknya dilakukan tokoh agama dalam menerapkan ajaran agama pada umatnya?
Ketika seseorang menjadi tokoh agama, berarti ia adalah seseorang yang akan dijadikan panutan oleh umat-umatnya. Sebelum dia menerapkan ajaran agamanya, seharusnya dia benar-benar menangkap dulu esensi dari agama dan ajaran agamanya dia. Ketika dia sudah mengerti esensi agama dan ajaran agamanya, maka ia baru bisa menginterpretasikan ajaran agamanya yang dibuat jaman dahulu dengan keadaan yang sekarang karena seharusnya ajaran agama dinamis, bisa digunakan kapanpun, tinggal bagaimana kita menginterpretasikannya saja. Tokoh agama harus mampu menunjukkan hubungan ajaran agamanya dengan keadaan yang sekarang agar tetap bisa digunakan umatnya dalam kehidupan sehari-hari dan agar umatnya tidak menyalahgunakan ajaran agamanya.
5.Dialog apa di film ini yang menunjukkan bahwa ajaran agama Islam disalahgunakan?
Ketika Taliban ingin melakukan penghukuman kepada wartawan, seorang wanita dan Osama. Di awal kata-katanya, ia mengucapkan ‘Dalam hukum Taliban yang suci, orang-orang ini akan dihukum’. Ini menjadi landasan dia untuk menghukum mati seorang wartawan asing, mengubur hidup-hidup seorang wanita, dan menikahi seorang anak yang masih di bawah umur. Jika di adegan-adegan sebelumnya, penyimpangan ajaran agama masih terlihat implicit, di adegan ini, penyimpangan ajarannya benar-benar terlihat. Saya rasa mereka tidak mengetahui esensi ajaran agamanya tersebut hanya menerima bulat-bulat apa yang tersurat dalam kitab sucinya, padahal seharusnya jika Taliban itu mengetahui esensi ajarannya, seharusnya ia takkan melakukan perbuatan kejam seperti itu.
if you are too curious to know how the movie is, just grab it the nearest dvd store or may be you can download it. you won't regret after watching this, despite the unclear ending but overall it's a really good movie!
OSAMA tells us bout a story of a girl who disguise as a boy for the sake of her family's sustainability. you will see how cruel the taliban treats people in afganistan, especially for women. the right of women here really never acknowledge by them. taliban uses religion to mask their cruel action! briefly,this movie really capture what happen in afganistan and again, make you thank that destiny put your birth in this country, at least not like in afganistan when everything seems like a havoc and miserable.
this is my brief assignments:
1.Apa komentar spontan Anda ketika menonton film ini?
Komentar spontan saya ketika menonton film ini adalah Taliban memang sangat kejam. Saya tidak habis pikir untuk apa Taliban melakukan hal-hal seperti itu, apakah untuk menegakkan ajaran agama atau sekedar untuk kepentingan pribadinya. Saya sangat prihatin akan nasib masyarakat disana yang diperbudak dengan Taliban, terutama kaum wanita dan anak-anak. Setelah menonton film ini, saya menjadi merasa bersyuku bahwa saya tinggal di Indonesia yang walaupun banyak orang yang berfanatisme tinggi dengan agamanya, tetapi setidaknya saya tidak harus diperbudak dengan satu agama.
2.Apa peran agama dalam kemerdekaan umat manusia, terutama untuk wanita?
Peran agama secara general sebenarnya adalah untuk menjadi sarana manusia kepada Tuhan dengan ajarannya yang mengharuskan manusia berbuat baik. Entah itu berbuat baik dengan hewan, lingkungan, atau sesama manusianya. Pada dasarnya manusia mempunyai hak asasi, hak yang sudah melekat pada diri manusia masing-masing ketika pertama kali seseorang muncul di bumi sebagai manusia. Hak asasi ini disebut juga hak hidup karena memang hak ini adalah yang melindungi manusia dalam menjalani aktivitas nya sehari-sehari dalam kehidupannya. Selama ia tidak melanggar hak asasi orang lain, hak ia pun akan tetap dijunjung. Berarti seharusnya, setiap orang mempunyai kemerdekaannya sendiri-sendiri, merdeka dari kehendak orang lain. Entah itu pria atau wanita, menurut ajaran agama, di hadapan Tuhan, mereka adalah sederajat, tidak ada yg lebih special dan sudah seharusnya juga pria dan wanita diperlakukan sama di dalam kehidupan nyata. Jangan menjadikan gender sebagai justifikasi untuk menganggap remeh seseorang. Jadi, seharusnya peran agama terhadap semua manusia –entah itu pria atau wanita- adalah menyediakan dasar ajaran agamanya dengan benar agar setiap orang mau untuk berbuat baik terhadap sesama. Saya adalah orang yang percaya bahwa semua agama pada dasarnya adalah baik, tetapi semua itu kembali lagi kepada orang-orang yang mengintepretasikannya.
3.Apa kaitan agama dan kemanusiaan dari adegan film ini?
Kaitan agama dan kemanusiaan dalam film ini adalah bagaimana sebuah ajaran agama disalahgunakan atau digunakan sebagai topeng untuk menutupi sebuah kejahatan masal. Ajaran agama disini digunakan untuk merenggut kemerdekaan orang. Misalnya kemerdekaan wanita untuk berjalan sendiri, untuk tidak memakai burka, untuk bekerja dan mendapatkan gaji yang sesuai dengan pekerjaannya, untuk menghukum seseorang karena kesalahan yang sebenarnya bukan kesalahan, seperti wartawan yang mengambil gambar keadaan di Afganistan. Dalam film ini, seolah-olah perempuan dianggap lebih rendah, perempuan dianggap hanya sebagai alat untuk memuaskan nafsu lelaki, mengurus anak, mengurus suami. Perempuan tidak pernah dianggap lebih dari itu. Agama dijadikan tameng bahwa perempuan seharusnya menutup auratnya, tapi apakah semua bagian tubuh dari seorang wanita dikatakan aurat? Apabila kita menganalisa lebih dalam lagi yang dikatakan aurat adalah bagian tubuh yang dapat membuat terangsang. Jika begitu, kenapa pria juga tidak menggunakan burka? Toh wanita juga bisa saja terangsang dengan pria. Lagipula nterangsang itu tidak muncul dari aurat tubuh,tapi pikiran manusianya sendiri. Sebenarnya burka dulu dipakai karena pertama kali Islam muncul di daerah Arab yang notabene banyak gurun pasir, jadi agar tidak terkena debunya, mereka menggunakan burka. Hal itu bukan berarti seorang perempuan harus terus menggunakan burka dan agama Islam pun hanya menganjurkan perempuan untuk menutupi aurat tubuhnya, bukan berarti satu badan harus ditutupi. Selain itu, Taliban seolah-olah menggunakan dasar bahwa mereka itu suci jadi tidak boleh ada orang asing, seperti wartawan yang meliput aktivitas mereka. Padahal di agama Islam tidak pernah menyatakan bahwa orang yang merenggut kemerdekaan orang lain dikatakan sebagai yang suci. Taliban hanya menggunakan ‘kesucian’ mereka sebagai dasar untuk menghukum mati seorang wartawan asing. Jadi, agama dalam film ini benar-benar dijadikan sebagai topeng untuk menutupi kejahatan Taliban dalam merenggut kemerdekaannya.
4.Menurut Anda, apa yang sebaiknya dilakukan tokoh agama dalam menerapkan ajaran agama pada umatnya?
Ketika seseorang menjadi tokoh agama, berarti ia adalah seseorang yang akan dijadikan panutan oleh umat-umatnya. Sebelum dia menerapkan ajaran agamanya, seharusnya dia benar-benar menangkap dulu esensi dari agama dan ajaran agamanya dia. Ketika dia sudah mengerti esensi agama dan ajaran agamanya, maka ia baru bisa menginterpretasikan ajaran agamanya yang dibuat jaman dahulu dengan keadaan yang sekarang karena seharusnya ajaran agama dinamis, bisa digunakan kapanpun, tinggal bagaimana kita menginterpretasikannya saja. Tokoh agama harus mampu menunjukkan hubungan ajaran agamanya dengan keadaan yang sekarang agar tetap bisa digunakan umatnya dalam kehidupan sehari-hari dan agar umatnya tidak menyalahgunakan ajaran agamanya.
5.Dialog apa di film ini yang menunjukkan bahwa ajaran agama Islam disalahgunakan?
Ketika Taliban ingin melakukan penghukuman kepada wartawan, seorang wanita dan Osama. Di awal kata-katanya, ia mengucapkan ‘Dalam hukum Taliban yang suci, orang-orang ini akan dihukum’. Ini menjadi landasan dia untuk menghukum mati seorang wartawan asing, mengubur hidup-hidup seorang wanita, dan menikahi seorang anak yang masih di bawah umur. Jika di adegan-adegan sebelumnya, penyimpangan ajaran agama masih terlihat implicit, di adegan ini, penyimpangan ajarannya benar-benar terlihat. Saya rasa mereka tidak mengetahui esensi ajaran agamanya tersebut hanya menerima bulat-bulat apa yang tersurat dalam kitab sucinya, padahal seharusnya jika Taliban itu mengetahui esensi ajarannya, seharusnya ia takkan melakukan perbuatan kejam seperti itu.
if you are too curious to know how the movie is, just grab it the nearest dvd store or may be you can download it. you won't regret after watching this, despite the unclear ending but overall it's a really good movie!
have you thanked people around you?
haiiii,,this is my 1st blog in march. so sorry. never mean to forget you but this month is really hectic, with assignments, mid-test, debate competition, announcing,PNMHII stuffs,my daily activities*thinking bout unimportants stuffs regularly* and last but npt least preparing a gift for someone.hehe
oh ya btw tmmrw i'll go to jember for Pertemuan Nasional Mahasiswa Hubungan Internasional se-Indonesia.
amid these all-bad-damn-insane hectic activities sometimes really stress me out! really want to make me crazy, not mention to take care bout my own life, like washing clothes, cleaning my rooms.aahhh
but amid these, i've realized a valuable fact which is I still have to be grateful and thank people around me. even they just help slightly but still without them i can't resist my life here as an independent-dorm-girl-wanna be. haha.
for example: tazia, wenny, diann. those are my friends who have a nice heart to allow me to put my jeans in their dorms. aahhh. can you imagine how i can survive with all of these activities meanwhile i still have to wash my jeans?! washing jeans is really hard!! and i really thank them with their aid. even not them who washes my jeans. haha
and again. without my friends who will lend me money if i'm lack of fund. ahh. can you imagine without them what i want to eat?! haha.
soo,in nutshell, i wanna start this 1st blog in march by saying: aid is come in unexpected and unidentified way. so however the aid is subtle, but still! you have to thank the people who give you aid. you never can imagine how their small aid can predispose your life in a huge influence. may be without them your life will worsen than now.
soo let's start thanking people around you! :)
happy march! :)
oh ya btw tmmrw i'll go to jember for Pertemuan Nasional Mahasiswa Hubungan Internasional se-Indonesia.
amid these all-bad-damn-insane hectic activities sometimes really stress me out! really want to make me crazy, not mention to take care bout my own life, like washing clothes, cleaning my rooms.aahhh
but amid these, i've realized a valuable fact which is I still have to be grateful and thank people around me. even they just help slightly but still without them i can't resist my life here as an independent-dorm-girl-wanna be. haha.
for example: tazia, wenny, diann. those are my friends who have a nice heart to allow me to put my jeans in their dorms. aahhh. can you imagine how i can survive with all of these activities meanwhile i still have to wash my jeans?! washing jeans is really hard!! and i really thank them with their aid. even not them who washes my jeans. haha
and again. without my friends who will lend me money if i'm lack of fund. ahh. can you imagine without them what i want to eat?! haha.
soo,in nutshell, i wanna start this 1st blog in march by saying: aid is come in unexpected and unidentified way. so however the aid is subtle, but still! you have to thank the people who give you aid. you never can imagine how their small aid can predispose your life in a huge influence. may be without them your life will worsen than now.
soo let's start thanking people around you! :)
happy march! :)
Rabu, 17 Februari 2010
indonesia is as lazy student in school.
may be we have been soooo nauseated with the media which continuously publish the ACFTA. now i wanna make all of you more nauseated bout that. haha. :p
well, frankly i wanna post this since long long time ago but the spare time just came to me now, in the midnight. haha.
as we all know, seems like only indonesia who is really trembling and have huge uproar in facing ACFTA. 1st time, i knew this fact, i was wondering why only Indonesia who has a lot of protest. and after i was meditating, contemplating in a cave while reading newspaper *noo it's just exaggerating :)*, finally i've found what i want to know.
in fact, this uproar happen because frankly gov is not ready enough to face this ACFTA, whereas the agreement has been signed since megawati governance but they never do preparation to face ACFTA*may be there was, but only few actions*. even the growth of this ACFTA seems like kept neatly under carpet and when the carpet is blowed up, people around it, flounder about the readiness of ACFTA.
why gov of indonesia seems like not care? meanwhile singapore and malaysia did some domestic industry protection in order to strengthen them when the open market comes.may be indonesia really loves its javanese culture bout'tarsok2' or just postponing task when it frankly can be done now.
well, even if indonesia isn't ready enough to face ACFTA, why indonesia still keep insisting to join ACFTA in this year? meanwhile, laos, kambodia, myanmar, and vietnam postpone their participation up to next 5 years because they are not ready yet about the open-market. may be because of prestige? because Indonesia is the one country who invited to G-2o, so it'll be a shame if indonesia postpone the agreement? i don't think that image is more important than our economy. although our economy growth is better nowadays, but it's still fragile, and what will happen i we just force our economy condition now to get abundant import goods from china,our economy condition will be in pieces. can the good image of indonesia help the our economy condition *besides giving loan*?
and again, even if indonesia considers image is important, so why indonesia didn't use safe-guard to protect some fragile industry, that will be endured huge impact from this ACFTA? i don't know whose false is this, i'm just wondering.
what i see from this case, it resemble like lazy student analogy.
indonesia resemble like a lazy student who never make any preparation to face the examination.because he thinks that he still have much much time before exam days *tarsok-tarsok culture*,but when the exam's day comes, he will flounder. he will fail in the school *in this term is ASEAN-china* because so many competitors who are more well-prepared.
that was all just my thought, my notion from a 2nd semester-collegian, who still in bad level of analysis. anyhow i just wanna share my thought! because thought will be meaningless when it just stucks in ur head!
well, frankly i wanna post this since long long time ago but the spare time just came to me now, in the midnight. haha.
as we all know, seems like only indonesia who is really trembling and have huge uproar in facing ACFTA. 1st time, i knew this fact, i was wondering why only Indonesia who has a lot of protest. and after i was meditating, contemplating in a cave while reading newspaper *noo it's just exaggerating :)*, finally i've found what i want to know.
in fact, this uproar happen because frankly gov is not ready enough to face this ACFTA, whereas the agreement has been signed since megawati governance but they never do preparation to face ACFTA*may be there was, but only few actions*. even the growth of this ACFTA seems like kept neatly under carpet and when the carpet is blowed up, people around it, flounder about the readiness of ACFTA.
why gov of indonesia seems like not care? meanwhile singapore and malaysia did some domestic industry protection in order to strengthen them when the open market comes.may be indonesia really loves its javanese culture bout'tarsok2' or just postponing task when it frankly can be done now.
well, even if indonesia isn't ready enough to face ACFTA, why indonesia still keep insisting to join ACFTA in this year? meanwhile, laos, kambodia, myanmar, and vietnam postpone their participation up to next 5 years because they are not ready yet about the open-market. may be because of prestige? because Indonesia is the one country who invited to G-2o, so it'll be a shame if indonesia postpone the agreement? i don't think that image is more important than our economy. although our economy growth is better nowadays, but it's still fragile, and what will happen i we just force our economy condition now to get abundant import goods from china,our economy condition will be in pieces. can the good image of indonesia help the our economy condition *besides giving loan*?
and again, even if indonesia considers image is important, so why indonesia didn't use safe-guard to protect some fragile industry, that will be endured huge impact from this ACFTA? i don't know whose false is this, i'm just wondering.
what i see from this case, it resemble like lazy student analogy.
indonesia resemble like a lazy student who never make any preparation to face the examination.because he thinks that he still have much much time before exam days *tarsok-tarsok culture*,but when the exam's day comes, he will flounder. he will fail in the school *in this term is ASEAN-china* because so many competitors who are more well-prepared.
that was all just my thought, my notion from a 2nd semester-collegian, who still in bad level of analysis. anyhow i just wanna share my thought! because thought will be meaningless when it just stucks in ur head!
inter-religion marriage
welcome back to my hectic day :)
today actually i'm so busy with lecture, announcing, debating, and also some stuffs that i have to handle.
no one interesting for today, except the debate practicing today.
today i got British Parliamentary debate, which contains 4 groups,consist with 2 persons. well i'm not gonna tell it practically. because somehow i'm kind of lazy!haha.
briefly, i got opening opposition, which oblige me to oppose the motion.
and the most suck part in this debate is the motion which is:
THW ALLOW INTER-RELIGION MARRIAGE
WOW. I and tiola *my 1st speaker* kind'a surprise bout that motion. we think that motion is bias *yeah we know, we said that because it backlashed our deep heart* haha. but though it's still debatable. :)
but trust me, debate without your faithfully is really sucks. even you are really hard to find the argument *although u are easily to find the BOP*. haha. even if i have lived in debating world for 3 years *since high school*, i'm still not professional in some motion, which really contradict with my deep heart. haha. moreover, the gov policy bout the prohibition in inter-religion marriage totally doesn't make sense! since the 1st time i've known this regulation until now i totally can't understand what the reasons are!
i'm as the one who ever endure this serious inter-religion relationship, really can't understand bout what gov thinks.
they prohibit us to have family with person,who is diffrent in religion. i think, in our governance and also our society have been fulfilled by conservative people, who thinks that having inter-religion marriage is a sin! meanwhile, if we analyze deeper bout what are religion and marriage actually. we can find those things are really diffrent!
religion is just a facility to have relationship with who believe in. it's more on your self, on your faith and believe. nothing connect with your love's life *yeahh these words, i used to always say to my ex bf*
and also i think if the couple has fully-committed, understanding, respect each other, it doesn't matter with the marriage itself right?
in the end, i'm still confuse why government really wants to interfere on how we find the right person in our life!
remember, right person is not considered by what they believe in!
so, THW still oppose the inter-religion marriage prohibition! :)
today actually i'm so busy with lecture, announcing, debating, and also some stuffs that i have to handle.
no one interesting for today, except the debate practicing today.
today i got British Parliamentary debate, which contains 4 groups,consist with 2 persons. well i'm not gonna tell it practically. because somehow i'm kind of lazy!haha.
briefly, i got opening opposition, which oblige me to oppose the motion.
and the most suck part in this debate is the motion which is:
THW ALLOW INTER-RELIGION MARRIAGE
WOW. I and tiola *my 1st speaker* kind'a surprise bout that motion. we think that motion is bias *yeah we know, we said that because it backlashed our deep heart* haha. but though it's still debatable. :)
but trust me, debate without your faithfully is really sucks. even you are really hard to find the argument *although u are easily to find the BOP*. haha. even if i have lived in debating world for 3 years *since high school*, i'm still not professional in some motion, which really contradict with my deep heart. haha. moreover, the gov policy bout the prohibition in inter-religion marriage totally doesn't make sense! since the 1st time i've known this regulation until now i totally can't understand what the reasons are!
i'm as the one who ever endure this serious inter-religion relationship, really can't understand bout what gov thinks.
they prohibit us to have family with person,who is diffrent in religion. i think, in our governance and also our society have been fulfilled by conservative people, who thinks that having inter-religion marriage is a sin! meanwhile, if we analyze deeper bout what are religion and marriage actually. we can find those things are really diffrent!
religion is just a facility to have relationship with who believe in. it's more on your self, on your faith and believe. nothing connect with your love's life *yeahh these words, i used to always say to my ex bf*
and also i think if the couple has fully-committed, understanding, respect each other, it doesn't matter with the marriage itself right?
in the end, i'm still confuse why government really wants to interfere on how we find the right person in our life!
remember, right person is not considered by what they believe in!
so, THW still oppose the inter-religion marriage prohibition! :)
Senin, 15 Februari 2010
what can make you feel nauseaous?
sebagai manusia pasti kita punya kecenderungan utk enek/ muak/ ilfil sama 1 benda/ seseorang.
hmh misalnya gw. gw ituh gampang ilfil bgt ma org/ benda.
klo liat cowok ganteng, tapi klo liat dia lagi dgn keanehan2 tertentu gw pasti lgsg ilfil. track record ilfil gw pun sudah tak diragukan lg keanehan2 nya *based on my survey towards my folks*. misal gw pernah ilfil ma cowok krn suaranya jelek, lebih bawel dri gw,jalannya kyk anak TK, ngerusakin kamera gw, pemalu, dan yg terbaru gw bisa ilfil ma cowok krn dia pake celana pendek bunga2 *well, i think it's justifiable right?*
kemampuan gw utk ilfil ma benda pun ga diragukan lagi. kdg2 itu berguna lho! kalo misalnya gw lagi gila belanja, dan duitnya udah hampir abis sdgkan brg yg mau gw beli itu msh banyak, yg gw akan lakukan adalah bkin skala prioritas dan gw bilang sama diri gw sendiri "AYO CINKK ILFIL DONK MA NI BAJU.ILFIL.ILFIL.ILFIL" laluuu bereslah sudah. gw pun lgsg ilfil ma tuh brg dan tak da keinginan utk beli baju itu lagi. keanehan gw ini sempet bikin seseorang yg pernah deket bgt ma gw jadi bingung, lalu ia pun tertawa dan bilang "KOQ KAMU ANEH YA? MAU NGILANGIN NIAT BELANJA AJA SAMPE HRS GITU?"
hmh ya begitulah bbrp cara yg gw lakukan utk bikin gw muak akan sesuatu. men-dogma-kan bahwa brg itu jelek bwt gw.
kalo utk brg dan orang2 yg ga gtu deket kyknya mank gampang bgt. tapi gmn kalo dgn org yg pernah deket bgt ma gw? apakah semudah itu gw ilfil sama dia? walaupun dia udah bikin salah sama gw. nyatanya,gak. susah malah.
pernah ga si lo kyk gtu?
padahal tuh org da judesin lo, marah2in lo, lo tetep aja ga ilfil sama dia. cuma kesel sesaat trus tetep aja gak ilfil.
blakangan ini gw mikir apa ya yg bisa bikin gw muak ma org macam ini?
biasanya kalo kita makan 1makanan yg sama,dlm intensitas waktu yg sering,pasti kita bakal mual.
apa krn dia bukan makanan?
entah.
tapi mereka punya kesamaan koq. sama2 sering gw konsumsi setiap menit, dan 1 orang yang jenisnya sama koq. tapi kenapa gw ga mual2 ya sama dia? atau at least bosen/ muak/ ilfil?
so, do you have any other new ways to make me feel nauseaous with that kind of person?
hmh misalnya gw. gw ituh gampang ilfil bgt ma org/ benda.
klo liat cowok ganteng, tapi klo liat dia lagi dgn keanehan2 tertentu gw pasti lgsg ilfil. track record ilfil gw pun sudah tak diragukan lg keanehan2 nya *based on my survey towards my folks*. misal gw pernah ilfil ma cowok krn suaranya jelek, lebih bawel dri gw,jalannya kyk anak TK, ngerusakin kamera gw, pemalu, dan yg terbaru gw bisa ilfil ma cowok krn dia pake celana pendek bunga2 *well, i think it's justifiable right?*
kemampuan gw utk ilfil ma benda pun ga diragukan lagi. kdg2 itu berguna lho! kalo misalnya gw lagi gila belanja, dan duitnya udah hampir abis sdgkan brg yg mau gw beli itu msh banyak, yg gw akan lakukan adalah bkin skala prioritas dan gw bilang sama diri gw sendiri "AYO CINKK ILFIL DONK MA NI BAJU.ILFIL.ILFIL.ILFIL" laluuu bereslah sudah. gw pun lgsg ilfil ma tuh brg dan tak da keinginan utk beli baju itu lagi. keanehan gw ini sempet bikin seseorang yg pernah deket bgt ma gw jadi bingung, lalu ia pun tertawa dan bilang "KOQ KAMU ANEH YA? MAU NGILANGIN NIAT BELANJA AJA SAMPE HRS GITU?"
hmh ya begitulah bbrp cara yg gw lakukan utk bikin gw muak akan sesuatu. men-dogma-kan bahwa brg itu jelek bwt gw.
kalo utk brg dan orang2 yg ga gtu deket kyknya mank gampang bgt. tapi gmn kalo dgn org yg pernah deket bgt ma gw? apakah semudah itu gw ilfil sama dia? walaupun dia udah bikin salah sama gw. nyatanya,gak. susah malah.
pernah ga si lo kyk gtu?
padahal tuh org da judesin lo, marah2in lo, lo tetep aja ga ilfil sama dia. cuma kesel sesaat trus tetep aja gak ilfil.
blakangan ini gw mikir apa ya yg bisa bikin gw muak ma org macam ini?
biasanya kalo kita makan 1makanan yg sama,dlm intensitas waktu yg sering,pasti kita bakal mual.
apa krn dia bukan makanan?
entah.
tapi mereka punya kesamaan koq. sama2 sering gw konsumsi setiap menit, dan 1 orang yang jenisnya sama koq. tapi kenapa gw ga mual2 ya sama dia? atau at least bosen/ muak/ ilfil?
so, do you have any other new ways to make me feel nauseaous with that kind of person?
Minggu, 07 Februari 2010
art of love
these are some words from art of love -jordin sparks ft.guy sebastian- which i love most
it's in our nature to forget what matters
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right
Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
it's in our nature to forget what matters
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right
Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
Sabtu, 06 Februari 2010
dari talent-show ke sinetron dalam bentuk reality show.
kali ini saya mau membahas tentang sebuah ajang talent-show yang katanya sihhhh cari bakat yang mempunyai suara merdu dan teknik menyanyi yg ok tapi koq blakangan jadi ngaco ya.
kenapa saya bilang ngaco? dulu pas saya masih SMA, beberapa teman saya ada yang pernah ikut ajang talent show tersebut, tapi apa yang mereka dapat? mereka baru nyanyi 1 kalimat, dan bahkan baru ada yang cuma disuruh nyanyi doremifasolasido dan lgsg disuruh keluar. mereka kecewanya bukan maiinnn. udah ngantri panjang2, bolos sekolah pula, pas masuk ke ruang audisi, mereka cuma disuruh nyanyi yg gak penting bahkan ada yg blm selesai lalu di dump-out.dan mereka di dump out oleh orang yang gak jelas backgroundnya. entah itu orang musik atau hanya orang yg gemar bermain gundu. waktu itu saya rasanya kesel karena ngeliat temen2 saya yg perjuangannya gila2an tapi hasilnya gak seberapa.apalagi teman2 saya yang ikut audisi tersebut, kualitas suaranya gak main2.
lalu ketika tahun ini, ketika saya baru merasakan jadi mahasiswa, ada seorang teman sayang yg ikut lagi dalam ajang ini,lalu ketika saya menanyakan kepada teman saya tentang hasil audisinya, saya lebih terkaget2 lagi karena bahkan dia tidak disuruh menyanyi sama sekali. biodata dia hanya dilihat lalu disuruuh keluarrrr.dan tentunya tidak ketrima.
saya mulai bingung disini.sebenernya ini ajang cari bakat untuk menyanyi atau ajang untuk mencari orang yang mempunyai masa kelam, kehidupan gundah gulana, baju compang camping yang suatu saat dapat dijadikan cerita mengharukan di atas panggung sehingga bisa menaikkan rating?
ya masa serba sulit seperti sekarang ini memang makin orang serakah dan nafsu untuk mengejar keuntungan saja *dlm hal ini lewat rating yg tinggi*. tapi bukan berarti meng-backlash nilai2 yang dijunjungnya.
kalau ingin meng-backlash atau mungkin mengubah jenisnya sekalian saja, tidak usah tanggung2 untuk menambahkan requirement : talent show hanya utk org2 yg punya kehidupan suram. itu kan lebih baik daripada memberi harapan tinggi kepada jutaan orang disana yang tidak memiliki kehidupan suram. itu mungkin bisa dibilang kebohongan publik juga. atau skenario massal.
mungkin lain kali talent-show seperti itu perlu diubah jenis programnya menjadi sinetron dalam bentuk reality show.
kenapa saya bilang ngaco? dulu pas saya masih SMA, beberapa teman saya ada yang pernah ikut ajang talent show tersebut, tapi apa yang mereka dapat? mereka baru nyanyi 1 kalimat, dan bahkan baru ada yang cuma disuruh nyanyi doremifasolasido dan lgsg disuruh keluar. mereka kecewanya bukan maiinnn. udah ngantri panjang2, bolos sekolah pula, pas masuk ke ruang audisi, mereka cuma disuruh nyanyi yg gak penting bahkan ada yg blm selesai lalu di dump-out.dan mereka di dump out oleh orang yang gak jelas backgroundnya. entah itu orang musik atau hanya orang yg gemar bermain gundu. waktu itu saya rasanya kesel karena ngeliat temen2 saya yg perjuangannya gila2an tapi hasilnya gak seberapa.apalagi teman2 saya yang ikut audisi tersebut, kualitas suaranya gak main2.
lalu ketika tahun ini, ketika saya baru merasakan jadi mahasiswa, ada seorang teman sayang yg ikut lagi dalam ajang ini,lalu ketika saya menanyakan kepada teman saya tentang hasil audisinya, saya lebih terkaget2 lagi karena bahkan dia tidak disuruh menyanyi sama sekali. biodata dia hanya dilihat lalu disuruuh keluarrrr.dan tentunya tidak ketrima.
saya mulai bingung disini.sebenernya ini ajang cari bakat untuk menyanyi atau ajang untuk mencari orang yang mempunyai masa kelam, kehidupan gundah gulana, baju compang camping yang suatu saat dapat dijadikan cerita mengharukan di atas panggung sehingga bisa menaikkan rating?
ya masa serba sulit seperti sekarang ini memang makin orang serakah dan nafsu untuk mengejar keuntungan saja *dlm hal ini lewat rating yg tinggi*. tapi bukan berarti meng-backlash nilai2 yang dijunjungnya.
kalau ingin meng-backlash atau mungkin mengubah jenisnya sekalian saja, tidak usah tanggung2 untuk menambahkan requirement : talent show hanya utk org2 yg punya kehidupan suram. itu kan lebih baik daripada memberi harapan tinggi kepada jutaan orang disana yang tidak memiliki kehidupan suram. itu mungkin bisa dibilang kebohongan publik juga. atau skenario massal.
mungkin lain kali talent-show seperti itu perlu diubah jenis programnya menjadi sinetron dalam bentuk reality show.
when religions become meaningless
recently, i read about the church bombing in Malaysia JUST because the usage of word 'ALLAH' in the church. during these times,this holly word is assumed as Muslim's belonging so when Christian use this, it invoked the anger from Muslims.
i'm sorry if i just said the prob as a 'JUST' because i don't see any essential part that has been violated by mentioning God with ALLAH even though the religions are diffirent 'til some people *who called themselves as a God flocks*dare to do human right violation, ya even though the toll is not much, but still it's called as human right violation. yes, may be there was some invoke from the political side but i'm not interested to analyze on that part because i think the core problem is not that, but lie on the understanding of the flocks about the meaning of religion.
what i see from this case is the shifting of religions meaning. or may be religions make people so fanatic and chauvinism. frankly, a church, a temple, a mosque, a God's name *Jesus, Allah, Deva, Deus, Yahwe*, a ritual, the holy bible, the tripitaka, or whatsoever it's a just a symbol right? is it true when there are thousands of people from other religions say their God with the same name with your God, it will hinder your sprituality?
actually religions were made by human, because human consider themselves as a powerless creature and they believe there are other power from outside there which they can never reach, called God. and religions just a bridge, a facility to achieve your God, through the teaching on how you have to have good deeds to every creature in your life.
so what is the point by bombing the churches, by making people feel pain? is it the demand from your religion doctrine? is it the willing from your God? obviously, NO! see when there are a group of narrow-minded, chauvinism people*who imagine themselves as the one is really really understand the religion's teaching* holocaust may be happened. they will be more easily to be invoked by irresponsible people who have their own interest.
what we should do as little part of huge world population? may be we have to strive to go out from the conservative minded. we should have a open-minded to accept the diffrences. even if there's a misunderstanding, it will be better if it's solved in smooth way*since we have had interreligion dialogue*
remember that religion should not be hinder of you social life. religion is just about your faith, your belief, with whom you believe, with what teaching make you more comfortable. so it should not hamper you to respect each other, to have open-minded, to accept the diffrences, to be more tolerant, and should not hamper you to have relationship *or even til get married* with people from other religion!! from the last point, i'm still questioning, questioning, and questioning why our government prohibit the interfaith couple to get married? government just too much intervene our private life with that sucks regulation even interfaith couple won't make this country recession.
last word from me: support the pluralism of religions, faith, and culture!!
do i need to introduce?
is it really important to introduce my self in my own blog?
well., whatever the answers. the obvious one that this is my 2nd blog after my previous was blog out of nowhere and since i love writing manual blog in my file *esp. when the boring class*
i don't clasify this blog, up to you how you interpret my writing. i just want to share what i feel, what i think, and wish you also share your thoughts because i think undistributed-thought will go in vain when you don't share it.
in the end, enjoy my scrawl :D
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