silly conversation between mom and her daughter via sms *bandung-jakarta*

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nyokap minta dicariin tiket murah air asia untuk ke bali. tapi stlh gw cari-cari tiket murah nya ga da dan gw pun bilang ke nyokap klo tiketnya udah gag da. lalu gw gantian nyari tiket pesawat untuk ke taiwan. akhirnya gw nemuin tiket yang murah dan gw langsung sms nyokap karena gw butuh credit card nya *dasar anak oportunis haha*

me: mi aku dpt tiket pesawat murah di airasia. aku da itung semuanya PP 3.845.800 dgn estimasi 1dollar = 10 ribu. smoga dollar turun lagi.hehe. ni promo nya sampe tgl 31 mei ini mi. skrg tgl bayarnya doank mi. tp aku ga ngerti bayarnya. ni bisa pake credit card atau debit.

mom: hah? mahal banget ikut tour di tempat ii saja murah PP cuma 1,7 juta. sdhlah cink kalo mahal sayang duitnya, mami ga berani kalo mahal segitu.

*gw pun shock! mikir. mank ada ke taiwan PP 1,7 jt? murahh benerr. mauu donkk! tapi masa nyokap gw ga mau bayarin pesawat? trus da sign kontrak gitu dsn, mau anaknya dituntut kali ya? trus stlh gw berpikir2 lagi, ternyata gw baru sadar nyokap gw itu salah interpretasi ttg sms nya. dia masih kebayang2 ma tiket pesawat bali. hahahaha. gw langsung ketawa. ya ga mungkin aja gitu gw dgn tanpa rasa bersalahnya ngajuin harga tiket ke bali sampe 3 jutaan dan lbh ga mungkin lg bagi gw *yang notabene agak pelit* nganggep harga segitu murah. hahaha

that's all. just want to share my silly conversation with my mom.
anw this is the 1st time i write blog in non-substantial topic. hehe.
wish me luck with all preparation to taiwan. wish me luck there.
and
happy vesakh day ! *this is my 1st time I celebrate vesakh day alone, without my fam. even i cried in the morning when made a call to my fam. oh how gushy i am! haha.*

reorganize. restructure. restrengthen

recently I feel my life is going to a mess *again*
my strong-will has been weaken.
my old bad habit is relapsing again
which is being ababil girl again. *big zzzz for myself*
i guess you've known what and who successfully tatter my life.
yes, he is.
hmh a bit hard and embarrassed to confess this.
but yes, til now i still can't escape from his shadow. *my melancholy side mode:on*
although i know it hurts me most but i still have a big damn shit unimportant curiousity *aka kepo* to know more bout it.
til right now, i'll vow to you that i have to strong conviction

that i'll

reorganize and restructure my mind
then
restrengthen my will


to get my normal life back.

i just found new quote, made by own self.
wishing it also could be prevail towards myself:

knowing and realizing are not enough to stop you clinging on what hurts you most. you need a strong-willed to get over about it. and ban your unimportant curiosity to that. at least by staying away from it, you have started to love yourself first!

i do want to love myself!
so i'll start it.
i'll strive to press my unimportant curiosity.
wish me luck.
pray for me.

sorry to be so melancholy right now.
adios!